the gypsies' journey...

we all are gypsies of a sort wandering traveling through this life other lives space and time here there and yon on roads less traveled - following the path of the sun and the trail of the stars to worlds known and unknown from yesterday and today into tomorrow -

this is a written and visual journal of my own travels - imagined and/or real -
imagined and/or real - a STREAMOFCONSCIOUSNESS telling of my own personal thoughts feelings experiences - interspersed with words and images of others - with things defined by most as PARAnormal which - for me - all my life - have been PERFECTLYnormal -

SO come along with me and we'll dance among the stars under the sun and over the moon - we'll share our stories around the campfire - together -

THE GYPSYWOMANWORLD

My photo
A...WOMAN IN MOTION WITH HAIR AS DARK AS NIGHT HER EYES WERE LIKE THAT OF A CAT IN THE DARK... SHE WAS A GYPSYWOMAN... she danced round and round... from the fire her face was all aglow... she was dancing... dancing... waiting for the RISING SUN... loving caring relationships are like THE RISING SUN...we are nourished by their warmth...we are energized by their strength...we grow in their light...we find shelter and solace there...they are our sanctuary... born in the sign of the sun, i am a true LEO-love the sun and its hot orange red fire-passionate in and about everything i do-i believe in instant chemistry charisma love/lust at first sight-in the magic of the eyes and the beauty of the soul-in the instant recognition familiarity in meeting someone from a past life and in the knowledge that we might meet in a future life-i believe that we are each ageless and flawless-i believe in the beauty of the moment-the whisper of yesterday-the hope of tomorrow-the power of forgiveness for even ourselves-the absolute and total beauty of love---[credit to brian hyland and curtis mayfield]

Thursday, July 2, 2009

my dear deer signs and symbols...

a few years ago, in the midst of a fantastical cosmic personal relationship, for a number of reasons, i was questioning the logic/validity of my continuing in this relationship regardless of how very much i wanted, even needed on many levels, to stay - it was not a new question in this situation - the question was there from the beginning but i made a choice - a decision - to enter into the relationship because i wanted it more than anything else, even if only for a moment scratched from a day or a week - you know, there is a line from the movie "steel magnolias" where shelby says to her mother, "I would rather have thirty minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special." - well, like shelby, i chose my thirty minutes - in any event, as i had always known it would, the time came when i had to make a decision and i did - almost daily - the thing was, i always decided to stay - so in this state of ambivalence in which i struggled moment by moment, driving the long highway to work one cold morning, i began still another mental dialogue - stay or go - go or stay - and mentally phrased a request for a "sign" of what i must do - just something, anything, please! something to help me see my way more clearly - to give me the strength to take the way, the way only i could take - and with that thought, at the very instant, the very moment, literally, of that request, on this four-lane divided highway, in a commercially developed area, as i drove in the left lane, my eyes cast downward for a mini-second to glance at the speedometer and when i blinked upward again, there, directly in front of my eyes, at my eye level, was the face of a deer - a deer looking me straight in the eye - straight! her head/face were even with mine and her eyes turned directly into mine as she bound across my car and onto the median of grass - it was all so surreal that i was sure i had imagined it - it wasn't possible for the deer to be in mid-air in front of my car traveling in the left lane when there was another car neck-to-neck in the other lane - it simply was not physically possible - but when i looked in my side mirror i saw her bounding down the median - she was real -

just a few days later, again driving to work one crisp morning, still again, i was having this same mental dialogue, as if a deer appearing in my face was not enough, and was also recounting the dream i'd had the night before - a dream in which my friend had "died" and i saw him in his casket - and as i'm driving, with the mental image of his casket in my mind, still questioning, still asking for a sign, for assurance - i approached the same place on the road where the doe of a few days before had jumped my car and there, on the side of the road, was a dead deer - a doe -

now, it was autumn and in the rural area in which i live, there is wildlife - however, in eight years here, i had never before seen a deer on the highway, an extremely busy highway which spans the length of the state, nor have i seen one since -

5 comments:

Trish and Rob MacGregor said...

Wow! Now here's a synchronicity for you. I'm writing the section in the book on animals as oracles, talking about the "eye" of Hurricane Wilma stalling over our town in 2005. I go to your blog - and there's yoiur post about the deer staring you in the eyes. In addition, t6his story would fit beautifully into this chapter. May I use it??

gypsywoman said...

but, of course, you may use it - it is one that i was hesitant to post only because it holds such intimate meaning to me personally - but i, like you, believe that sharing is caring - for ourselves and for others - and that to do less is not what i'm about - so, please feel free - and of the deer, you know, i can still feel its eyes in mine just as if she were here - incredible experience! - and thank you - jenean

gypsywoman said...

oh, and interesting also you were talking about the "EYE" of the hurricane and my next post was the "EYE" above -

Trish and Rob MacGregor said...

Thanks! EYE sounds like "I": is there a message for us somewhere in that?

gypsywoman said...

oh, wow!!! you're right! i missed the "i" - but now i "see" it!!! now for clarity on the message....
:)